To Huni, From Clover: August 2010

To: Huni

Wow, I had such a weird/bad dream last night. There were two parts that I remembered. The first was where for whatever reason, I told a cousin (I don't know who it was, I just knew in my dream that she was my cousin) that I'd marry her. I think it was a spur of the moment type thing, but later I got it together and was thinking, "What am I doing? I'm already engaged!" And I was afraid of telling her cause I didn't want to break her heart. But I finally did and she said that somewhere inside her, she knew that she and I were really not meant to be.

"You know, because we're cousins."

And then I stupidly say, "Cousins can get married." She gets a small twinkle in her eye but then I tell her that I still couldn't marry her, because I was already engaged.

The second part you had come over and we were somewhere, but you weren't happy. I was trying to figure out what was wrong but you were moody with me and answered with very short sentences, usually one word. But finally I get it out of you and you felt like you coming over was just for me to satisfy my own physical desires. Essentially taking you for granted again...

I think this was from the conversation we had a couple of days ago ^^;; So even if this thought was nowhere near your mind, just know that it isn't so and I am gratefully looking forward to seeing you.

From: Clover

PS: I didn't have time to do a video for this dream so I thought it'd be faster to just type it out. :3 Editing and uploading can take some time. ^^;;